I’ve always been a rather stressful person and one of my new year resolutions was to start looking after myself, however the year hasn’t started off that great and I’ve been feeling completely overwhelmed. Social media is one of those areas of my life which has been bringing me down and there’s been nights when I’ve wanted to give up with Instagram, the blog and Youtube. There’s times when I’m constantly comparing myself to others and I have complete lack of self respect. I really need to learn to love myself and believe that I am good enough, so from now on I’ll be looking after number one a little bit more.
I’ve recently treated myself to an essential oil diffuser to help me de-stress as well as some carefully chosen oils. Clary Sage, Bergamot, Lavender and Chamomile all help with anxiety, over worked mind, stress, worry etc which is what I wanted to focus on. I also know what oils alone won’t completely cure me and that I need to work on my life choices too. Sometimes I feel like I’m living three separate lives; my blogging life, work life and my life in Wales. I’m trying to give each one 100% of my time which is just impossible, so I need to figure out how all three can work together in perfect harmony .
Next on the ‘me time’ list is to really get stuck into the allotment, it’s looking so sad and messy at the moment that I’m struggling to find the motivation to do any work up there. I know that once I start and make a small dent in the to-do list that I’ll be back in the gardening flow. I just need to find the time to get up there and get the work done! I know I’ll feel loads better once the allotment is ready for the growing year, and I know for sure how great garden therapy is for the soul.
My allotment means so much more to me than just a piece of land. It really is my haven, my happy place and it’s the one place I can go and really be myself. As soon as I step onto Plot 15c my troubles melt away and I become a completely different person, a much calmer and happy one and I am so grateful to that little space. It gives me so much more than homegrown food and flowers. Does that make sense?
P.s There’s a new vlog over on Youtube where I talk about the stresses, my new essential oil diffuser, a book review and my handmade dungarees…